When I was my “before” picture I allowed men to treat me like crap. I’m not bashing men. My best friends are men. So I’m completely well aware of good men in the world but my mia culpa is that I allowed this treatment. I ignored red flags, I stayed in relationships and dating situations too long after I knew that I should get out. Why? I’m not 100% sure of that but I do know that my size was part of the reason. I think there is some deep rooted thing inside of me that believes I deserve the bad treatment and I guess my size was the excuse I gave.
The trigger that got me started in my weight loss journey was the end of a bad dating situation that I should have walked away from. Except now I am thankful for that very situation because 3 years later I’ve come out pretty awesome. I did get myself into some other bad dating situations after that but I have been able to pick myself back up a lot quicker and I’m also a lot stronger inside. I used to feel that when I was heavy I couldn’t get any better and I would allow the bad treatment of me but now with my sense of accomplishment I don’t allow the treatment. I can’t use my weight as an excuse that I cannot get a boyfriend. I have many guys that want to date me. I’m not saying that I’m a babe, I’m saying that my weight isn’t the excuse. There is something else. I don’t know what that is but I do know that I don’t feel that I have to allow this treatment anymore. Fitness is a way of saving me from myself.